"La Humildad"...Humility

~ Life is a long lesson in humility. ~

I do believe that Life is a long lesson in humility. Humility has so many meanings, but to me it is accepting your faults, realizing your weaknesses/shortcomings & striving to always overcome them. Acceptance is not submission; it is acknowledgement of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it.

As a child, I grew up being really afraid of the water after my father threw me in the ocean thinking my survival instincts would kick in, but instead, I nearly drowned. Ever since then, I was petrified of being in the deep waters but as I got older, I realized that the fear of the water was also tied to my fear of life, my fear of the dark, of failure & my most inner demons.

I always admired & loved watching triathletes compete, so about 6 years ago, I decided to learn how to swim. My first lesson was a disaster! I panicked the minute I got in the water & spent my entire lesson learning how to blow bubbles without passing out. Talking about humility! I spent the next 8 weeks learning the freestyle stroke, breathing & more bubbles to relax.

My belief has always been to choose a goal to intensify the meaning of what you are doing, so of course, I chose a triathlon. After 8 weeks, I was ready to participate in my 1st ever Triathlon in Harriman State Park. The morning of the Triathlon, I was surprisingly very cool until my "wave" was called & I was standing in the middle of hundreds of cap covered heads. I had only experienced swimming in the nice clear blue pool by myself, so I felt an incredible heaviness in my chest. Once the horn sounded to start my wave, I put my face in the water & felt everything literally go dark! I was swimming in Sebago Lake which was crazy dark & all my fears came back! I couldn't breathe & started to panic. Within seconds a lifeguard on a kayak came to my rescue & asked me to hold on. He asked me to climb up & take a breather which sounded perfect until he said, "if you do, you are disqualified!"

The thought of failing horrified me more than the fear of the water! The lifeguard also said, "If you decide to go back out there, you must complete the swim in under 30 minutes." I held on for about a minute & went back out there. Everything I had learned in the pool went out the window! I doggie paddled, backstroked, side stroked & even invented a few of my own. My official swim time was 29:45! The bike & the run was a piece of cake compared to the swim & I managed to finish my 1st ever Triathlon! I participated in a few more Triathlons after that including a Half Ironman, but always seemed to struggle big time on the swim. I was discouraged and kind of gave up. I am so used to being good at everything I set my mind to and couldn't understand why I couldn't kick ass in the swim.

I got overwhelmed with anxiety and uncertainty that I decided to take some time off from Triathlons. "Some time" meant about 3 yrs+ and in reality, I was running away from my fears. The water represented so many things I am afraid of & unless I stood up to them, they would always be in my path. Failing doesn't make you are a failure. Giving up, accepting your failure, refusing to try again does!

After relocating back to NYC last year, I decided to start new and accept everything about myself! I mean everything and have no regrets. On my list of dreamy goals is to one day complete an Ironman, but I have to be realistic and take the proper steps and address my fears with 100% sincerity & humility.

Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice
at the end of the day, saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."
- Mary Anne Radmacher

I got back in the pool this past March with my younger sister with a goal in mind of participating in a Triathlon in July. We encouraged each other through some difficult swimming sessions and it seemed that anytime I was having a challenging time in my personal life, it would be reflected in the pool. The difference this time was my self awareness, acceptance & the courage not to give up.

On July 23rd, I came back to Triathlon Racing at the NYRR Triathlon. I was not perfect in the swim, but I was able to get through it and at the same time, I saw my sister complete her first Triathlon ever! It was definitely a great day of accomplishment for both of us!


Even though I struggled once again on the swim, this time, I was not discouraged and instead decided to go right back in the water the following week at the Central Park Triathlon and it totally paid off! I struggled less in the water, attacked the bike and the run and placed 9th female overall and swept my age division placing 1st!


I was once again very proud of my sister as she completed her 2nd Triathlon ever & I got to "Face My Fears" and take a step closer to living my dreams. This Sunday, August 7th, I will take another step and participate in my first open water triathlon of the year at the Nautica NYC Triathlon which starts in the Hudson River. I am definitely anxious and afraid, but come Sunday, I will not let that stand in the way and as a special friend said to me when the fears creep up, say "Fear, I spit in your face! I trained way too hard for this!"

To me, Triathlons, Boxing, Running and competing in general are all opportunities to learn a valuable lesson to apply to your life on humility, on accepting and improving your weaknesses, on taking a leap of faith and never giving up on yourself and for that, I am truly grateful!

Much Love,

Patricia "Patty Boom Boom" Alcivar
"Face Your Fears, Live Your Dreams!"
www.patriciaalcivar.com

"Most obstacles melt away when we make up our minds to walk boldly through them!"

"Fighting" for My Life!

What is Strength? It's not just built of limbs, a tangled muscle & sinews. It's not just the bash of helmets on shoulders or crack of a baseball punching holes in the sky. Strength is a feeling...A Power...A Look. A shout tapped deep from within that says, I will Persist. I will Conquer. I will Prevail. That says this is the moment it all begins. That says I will not settle for anything less that I can be, share or do...If we just chose to Listen...I HAVE CHOSEN TO LISTEN!

From a very young age, I have literally been "fighting" for my life and dreams. From calling the police on my father to being on my own since I was 15 years old to each opportunity I take to stand up for what I believe in. Each day I pray for continued strength to never give up and to be able to accomplish my goals while being a positive influence in the lives of my loved ones, friends, athletes, women & anyone who has needed hope through my athletics and the way I live my life inside & outside of the ring.

Boxing to me represents an opportunity to continue to "Fight" for my life and dreams. The will is stronger than anything I could ever imagine. 10 days before my 5th professional fight on April 2nd in Jupiter, Florida, I was diagnosed with a severe upper respiratory infection. The doctor advised me not to get on the plane on the afternoon of March 23rd. I was on my way to Florida to get my body acclimated to the warmer weather as I would be fighting in the middle of the day in an outdoor stadium. Dr. Brody had his nurse come in as a witness to both the conversation & the signing of a document he had prepared advising me not to get on the flight that afternoon or fight on April 2nd. I had debated with him and told him I could "tough" this out as I fought my 2nd pro fight with a broken foot. His response was "I would rather you fight with a broken arm as that won't kill you."

I would be prescribed an antibiotic (Zithromax) for 5 days and without a doubt I got on that plane. My condition did worsen for a couple of days and I was afraid, but kept never ending hope. I took my workouts down a notch, but still ran during the warmest parts of the day. Fight day had arrived and although my body did not feel 100%, my heart & my will were going to give 1,000%. I was after all "Fighting" for My Life and Dreams!

On April 2nd, the sun was beaming and the humidity was high. I would over hear a couple of the fighters say that they could feel the heat from the boxing ring canvas burning their feet as there was no coverage from the sun. I entered that ring knowing in my heart that I was going to give my very best no matter what. I gave one of my very best performances under very challenging circumstances, but proved once again that anything done with passion and faith, can & will provide outstanding results!

My Desire & hope is to continue to approach everything in my life with much dedication, perseverance and fortitude. I believe the secret to lasting success is not something you find with an X on an old map. It must be MADE. It's being a creator and an INFLUENCER. It's being on a roll..Being an ULTIMATE, unrelenting, uncompromising go-getter. It's of GRIT & Determination, GUTS & MIND...It's a chain linking mastery & momentum and it drives you ever forward...Ever learning. Ever reaching. Ever striving for the next breakthrough....And it means never ever stopping. EVER!

With Much Love,
Patricia "Patty Boom Boom" Alcivar
"Face Your Fears, Live Your Dreams!"
www.patriciaalcivar.com
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Agua Dulce, Agua Sala'...Sweet water, Salt Water

In 1997, I was standing in the middle of a boxing ring in Augusta, Georgia getting the first ever Women's National Amateur Boxing Championship belt placed on my little waist after fighting & winning my preliminary bouts for 3 days straight and then facing off a very tough opponent on the championship night under very challenging circumstances.

"Agua Dulce, Agua Sala," (Sweet water, Salt Water) is a metaphor for life...In that moment in 1997, I felt both. The feeling of giving it my all, having my trainer say he was proud of me & the inner satisfaction was definitely "Agua Dulce!" Not having any of my family members there, not knowing if I would ever feel this way again and not knowing what the future holds was "Agua Sala."

Well, quite a few years later, I continue to have many days of both "Agua Dulce & Agua Sala," but have been blessed with the maturity to see and accept the true meaning of each experience. Each wonderful Marathon (15 in total)that I have completed has taught me never, ever to give up and taught me that with a strong mind you can will yourself to do anything! With each boxing match, I have learned that my dreams are worth fighting for and each triumph brings me a little closer despite the obstacles that always seem to present themselves. Every person that has come into my path has taught me a valuable lesson about myself & life even if those people are no longer in my life.

So, these days, "Agua Dulce" is the opportunity to welcome each day with a run, workout, prayer and gratitude. "Agua Dulce" is the being thankful for the very special people in my life and appreciating their qualities & contribution to my life. "Agua Dulce" is all the adventures I get to experience, face my fears & live my dreams & have no regrets.

Life is all about balance and you can only appreciate the sunshine that much more after rainy days, so of course there must be "Agua Sala" which to me means tears, moments of sadness and trying days. I have definitely experienced my share of "Agua Sala" during injuries/illnesses, not so great performances, failed relationships and disappointments.

I deal with my "salty water" days the best way I know how & that is relying on faith, prayers, strength & determination and realizing that each "salty water" day has a good purpose in my life & will teach me a meaningful lesson.

My wish for my loved ones, friends & supporters is for more of those beautiful days of "Agua Dulce" where you feel like you can fly and reach new heights and for those "Agua Sala" days to be eased with comfort in knowing that after each storm, the sun will shine and with enough faith, things will always get better!

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."
Helen Keller

Much Love,
Patty Boom Boom
www.patriciaalcivar.com

For the True Love of Boxing!

When my mom gave birth to me, she had not picked out a name for me. Talking about last minute planning..A student visiting her mom in the next bed brought in an old newspaper that she was doing her research paper on. The front cover picture caught my mom's attention. It was a picture of a woman with a machine gun holding up a bank...My mom named me after "Patty Hearst."

For as long as I can remember, I have always fought for my beliefs and passions and have literally put my life on the line for them. When I was 10 years old, I called the police on my father when he committed a mortal crime. At the age of 15, I decided I had enough of an abusive home and went to live on my own. The consequences of my actions were severe as I had to endure ridicule from my family and struggle to pay rent, go hungry many nights and work while I went to school. However, I would not change a thing today and stand by my decisions and dreams.

Even though I went through some incredibly difficult moments, the things that always provided comfort were my Faith, My Dreams & Sports. I have participated in quite a number of sports, but the one that caught my attention was Boxing. Perhaps, it is because it's the sport that most resembles the struggles of my life and gives me the opportunity to once again fight for my dreams.

I spent over 6 years as an amateur boxer winning two NYC Golden Gloves, the Empire State Games, a National title & an International Title. My biggest & proudest accomplishment in my amateur career was being the first female ever to be named "Athlete of the Year," by the United States Olympic Committee. After waiting for about 8 years for Women's Boxing to go to the Olympics, I took a break from boxing and always felt like I had unfinished business and had not done everything I could in the sport.



Against all odds, on October 9, 2009, I made my professional boxing debut in Columbia, TN. Little did I know the extreme challenges in the sport of pro boxing. There would be no purse (pay) for me and my opponent & venue changed about 6 times. My reward would be a first round knockout and the personal victory of doing something I truly loved and the satisfaction of taking that first step towards my ultimate dream of becoming World Champion.

Almost 17 months & 3 fights later, not much has changed. In order to keep fighting for my dreams & be able to train and make ends meet, I have had to work a number of freelance/part-time gigs and have compiled quite the resume with skills that include: Event Management, Personal Training, Translating/Interpreting, Dog Walking, Babysitting, Massage Therapy and my latest after graduating with honors, Emergency Medical Technician!

Some female boxers like myself are not fortunate enough to have their professional boxing careers funded in order to train full time. It truly is a big sacrifice and I do it for the True Love of Boxing and My Dreams! On March 4th, I will be taking a closer step towards my dreams when I fight my 4th professional fight in my hometown of Queens, NY! In attendance for the first time will be my mom, younger sister & niece. It is an amazing opportunity which I am so thankful for, however, in order to make it truly successful, I definitely need the support of my supporters! Ticket Sales are an amazingly important part of professional boxing. Links to purchase tickets are included below...

http://www.wix.com/jsizzle141/boomboomtickets OR my website at:
http://www.patriciaalcivar.com/updates

In closing, I just want to thank all my family, friends and supporters for following me on this incredible journey thus far, Trinity Boxing for providing a safe & reliable place to train and my manager, Johnny who works exceptionally hard to make my dreams a reality! I thank God for giving me the opportunity to Dream High for my chance to Fly High!

Much Love,
Patty Boom Boom
www.patriciaalcivar.com

"Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do"

Los Caminos De La Vida – The Paths of Life

The title of my blog is "Los Caminos De La Vida," which means The Paths of Life. This is the title of a Colombian vallenato that I grew up listening to on the very popular Hispanic radio station, "Radio Wado 1280." I still listen to this radio station in the early mornings & the song was featured very appropriately yesterday,the day before my Graduation as an EMT. Whoa! I have had a lump in my throat all day yesterday and today...It is a familiar bitter sweet feeling I get after a difficult journey.

In 1997, someone who believed in me more than me, encouraged me to enter the 1st ever Women's Amateur National Boxing Championships. I had just lost a very close decision in the NY Daily News Golden Gloves in Madison Square Garden and honestly wasn't sure I was mentally ready. I remember my trainer's words 3 months prior to the big tournament like it was yesterday, "We are going to bust our butts and work harder than any girl out there! Mark my words, YOU WILL BE A NATIONAL CHAMPION!"

We overcame some rough adversities throughout our training that summer including recovering from a broken right wrist, but we were laser beamed focused and had one goal in mind..The week of the tournament was here! I fought for 3 days winning my bout on each day & making it to the Championship finals! My opponent would be a tough fellow NYer who had impressively stopped her opponents throughout the tournament. I was considered a huge underdog to everyone except my trainer. He just knew and believed in me & my abilities.

Right before the bell rung to start the bout, I took a deep breath, looked at my trainer and then at the sky. It was just going to take that leap of faith to dig deep & give it everything I had. I definitely gave it my all & ended up winning in a very impressive fashion. Right before getting the Championship Belt placed in an emotional ceremony, my trainer said to me "I am very proud of you." It was the very first time someone had ever said that to me and something I would never forget. During the ceremony, it was a bittersweet feeling knowing that all my hard work paid off & hearing something for the first time. What other feeling can ever come close to that?

Throughout the years after that, I have been very fortunate to use the accomplishments from different events to help me continue to believe in myself & apply them in other areas of my life. Each extraordinary moment taught me something new about myself & fulfilled me in a different way. Tomorrow, I will graduate as an EMT and receive awards for Academic Achievement & Perfect Attendance. This EMS course challenged me & pushed me to great heights and once again, helped me see what is possible when you don't give up no matter what the circumstances.

It's a bittersweet feeling that I will feel when I get my certificate/s. It may be that I will miss being challenged with tough exams on a weekly basis & being pushed out of my comfort zone with balancing school, work & training. It may be that for the first time, my mom & younger sister will be present in a very significant moment in my life or it just may be that here is an opportunity for me to be proud of myself and not wanting that feeling to ever go away...

"Los Caminos de La Vida," represents to me a lifetime of choosing different paths. I feel like I may have been dealt with some extreme and unusual circumstances throughout my life, but have been blessed to make the best out of each situation & still make own path.

Tomorrow, I will make a toast & enjoy this bittersweet feeling and look back at my journey through this Emergency Medical Services course and review my plan of working part-time as an EMT, help as many people as I can until I start Nursing School in the Fall while I continue my boxing dreams & pursuit of Excellence!

As always, thanking my supporters, friends & loved ones for accopanying me on this journey!



"Face Your Fears, Live Your Dreams!"

Patricia Alcivar
"Patty Boom Boom"
www.patriciaalcivar.com


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Making My 2011 Resolutions A Reality!

Every year for about the last 13 years or so, I do the old fashion thing of writing down a good list of about 5-10 things I want to accomplish for the New Year. It MUST be written though! Written goals have a way of transforming wishes into wants; cant's into cans; dreams into plans; and plans into reality. Don't just think it - ink it!

When I was about 17 years old, I was barely surviving on my own working in a Battered Women's Shelter named "Sanctuary for Families". At the time, "The New School" offered the staff & clients free classes from their catalog. I had just won the World Full Contact Kyokushin Karate Championships in the women's light weight division & needed a new challenge. I have been fortunate enough from a very young age to be able to seek things that will help me grow spiritually & mentally. My goal for that year was to find something that would challenge me in a different way and I was going to stop at nothing until I found it! All of a sudden this one class just jumped out of the book at me..."Learn the Art of Boxing".

I was so psyched and could not wait to take on my next challenge! However, I was disappointed when I got there and saw that the class was more like a box-aerobics class. I marched right up to the instructor after class and told him that I thought this was going to be a real boxing class. I told him that I was a champion martial artist & wanted to improve my punches. This Brooklyn guy named Martin Snow had the nerve to tell me that Karate sucked & to throw any punches or kicks I wanted and he would block it. I was determined to make an impression on this 6'5", 240lb Brooklynite, so I was throwing kicks & punches and he was indeed blocking everything hard! Until...I found a wonderful opening right in his mid section & I threw a straight right hand with all my might! YES! I knocked the wind out of him and his next words to me were "Women's Boxing just became legal in NYC..Do you wanna fight?" I had found my next challenge!! It continues to be one of the sports that takes me out of my comfort zone & brings the best out of me!

In order to accomplish your goals, you MUST crystallize your goals. Make a plan for achieving them and set yourself a deadline. Then, with supreme confidence, determination and disregard for obstacles and other people's criticisms carry out your plan!

In my second professional fight this summer, I broke my right foot 3 weeks before my fight! A broken metatarsal requires at least 4-6 weeks in an air cast. I looked at the podiatrist straight in the eyes and told him that I was fighting no matter what! I was also crying like a baby & had the utmost faith that although it might not be easy, everything was going to workout. This doctor customized all of my foot wear with extra padding/cushion, put a cortisone shot right in my bone & taught me how to bandage my foot for extra support. I was not to run for the next 3 weeks & do non impact exercises. I replaced my daily runs with high intensity speed drills on the elliptical machine, stair master & swimming. The night of my fight came & I was insanely nervous as I was fighting with a broken foot & with someone who was much more experienced than I was. All through this though, I had amazing FAITH and my goal in mind the entire time! I won that fight with a TKO at the end of the 4th round!

To achieve success, you need both persistence and flexibility. When you face difficulties and unexpected problems, use all your persistence and determination to stick to your goals. If the way you do things now does not work, try another way. Keep trying until you find the one that works. Don't change the ends, change the means. It is my true belief though that gratitude and faith MUST be part of the whole goal setting process. I would not have gotten this far without my belief in a higher power. It is a very important part of my everyday life.

So, what's in store for Patty Boom Boom in 2011? LOTS!! Before I start mentioning just a few, I want to say that I am incredibly thankful to my higher power which is God. I feel truly humbled and blessed to be able to accomplish so many things this year even through some extreme challenges. Everything I do, I do with so much love, passion, faith & determination. Some of my goals for 2011 include:

1. Boxing/Fighting in my hometown & Internationally
2. Completing my first Ironman at Lake Placid in July
3. Start Nursing School in March
4. Focus on writing & completing my memoir
5. Continue Living my life with incredible Faith & Passion!

Thank you all for your amazing & continued support! Looking forward to sharing this incredible journey of adventures, faith & growth in 2011 & beyond! My wish for all my Friends & Loved ones is:

May you always have enough happiness to keep you sweet;
enough trials to keep you strong;
enough success to keep you eager;
enough faith to give you courage;
and enough determination to
make each day a good day!

Wishing you all amazing blessings & health for the coming year!

Much Love,

Patricia Alcivar aka "Patty Boom Boom"
www.patriciaalcivar.com

Facing My Fears at "Tough Mudder"

FEAR can either paralyze you or fuel you! I am so thankful that I understand that I always have a choice about how to respond to and deal with fear. I can cave into it, struggle with it, accept it, or work around it. I always have a choice, a choice I can make again and again or that I can change based on my assessment of what is best for me.

On Saturday, November 20th, I took the opportunity to "Face My Fear" of the water, cold & heights at the 12-mile Tough Mudder that had 19 obstacles. Half of those obstacles were in the water. For as long as I can remember, I have had an awful fear of the water, the cold, the dark & heights among other things, but those are the most significant ones. I do my very best not to let the fear of anything paralyze me and instead, take every opportunity I can to face my fear right in the face. As my Cognitive-Behavioral Therapist, Rick Baker would say,"If you do what you are afraid of, you WILL get better!"

Drowning in a pool and at the beach when I was a child started my fear of the water. My Father at the time would throw me further into the ocean to see if I could survive making my fear even worse. However, one of my life goals is to complete an Ironman & about 5 years ago, learned how to swim as an adult & competed in my first sprint Triathlon. Putting my face in that dark, cold lake was CRAZY!! I hyperventilated, cried and held on to the raft and was about to get disqualified. To me, that meant failure and something GREAT was about to happen. I got on my back & even invented some new swimming strokes & finished the swim in 29:30 which was 30 seconds before the cut-off time!

Ever since then, I just keep attacking my fears! When the Winter Tough Mudder was announced, I definitely hesitated, but knew I just had to do it. It was an opportunity for me to deal with 3 of my fears. I am a big believer of training hard and being prepared, but there is really no way to prepare to jumping in ICE cold water. The morning of the Tough Mudder was here and morning temps were in the low 30's. Skipping the event never entered my mind, but the anxiety and fear were greater than ever.

When things get this way where I can't think clearly or calmly, there is one thing that brings me comfort & peace and that is prayer and faith! That combined with determination is a great recipe to ensure that I would atleast get through the race. Another key element is the support of my loved ones..Having my sister, nephews, niece & dogs there with me was wonderful! Inadvertently, I would be influencing them to never give up on their dreams or let fear get in the way ever!

The start horn sounded and off I went on my journey.. We started out just running on the raceway and grass and then we hit our first water challenge which was "The Plank"! Oh My Dear God! This was 3 of my fears staring me right in the face!! The plank was about 15ft high & the challenge was to jump off into ICE COLD DARK 15ft deep WATER! Just as I was walking up to jump, a spectator jumped out to pull out a participant that had "blacked out" from the impact and the cold!! I started hyperventilating and crying...All that anxiety came back and got worse when I heard the guy that was pulled out say "That water felt like ice glaciers stabbing me all over and I just passed out"!

I had to step away and take a few minutes to calm down & reassess why I was doing this..I realized what I always knew and that is I am doing this to overcome my fears, to achieve my goals, my dreams and smile back at another chance God has given me to inspire myself and others! I went back up, took a deep breath and jumped off! WOW! I also did black out for a second and starting to swim as if there was a shark in the water! My body was completely numb, wet & cold & would remain that way for 2 hrs! The 18 challenges after that were pretty awful as well. They included:

1.Underwater Tunnels: As if walking the plank and jumping into ice cold water wasn't bad enough, this next water challenge, we had to bob up and down under these tunnels. Holding my breath and trying to go under these tunnels tightened up my chest & I thought my heart was about to stop!! We were only at mile 3! It's gonna be a long day was my thought!!
2.Spider's Web:This challenge completely murdered my arms..There were TWO cargo nets to climb!
3.Mud Mile/s: There were miles and miles of just running in the WET and COLD Mud. They had sprinkles on at all times soaking up the mud. There were mud hills where you could not run up and instead go up on all fours and slide down on your butt!
4.Kiss of Mud: This "low crawl" in the wet, cold & super rocky mud for about 1/4 mile was extremely painful!
5.Berlin Walls: There were about ten 12ft high walls to get over!!
6.Firewalker: I wouldn't say that "Fire" was one of my fears until the "Tough Mudder Fire"! Holy SMOKES! The smoke/fumes from this challenge nearly closed my throat & I felt as if I was in the water again. Almost started to panic!
7.Funkey Monkey: After running 11 miles cold & wet, it was nearly impossible to have enough energy to get through the "Tough Mudder Money Bars" upside down accross a cold lake!!
8.Twinkle Toes: Right after Funkey Monkey trying to have any coordination & balance to walk across a crazy narrow piece of wood on a lake was insanely rough!!
9."Mystery Event": This I did not see coming a mile away! I was about half a mile from the finish line, so how bad could it be? It was a mud pit with PAINFUL electrical shocks underneath!! How CRUEL! I screamed so loud and felt my feet starting to cramp...

As I was hobbling out of the last challenge, I saw a group of 3 girls approaching..My competitive instinct kicked in, forgot about the cramps and how awful my body felt and I started to sprint to the finish...I had NO idea that I was the 3rd female coming in until I reached the finish line and was told "Congratulations! You are the 3rd female"! The emotions of just completed this event took over and I was incredibly grateful!

Thank you to my loved ones and special friends for their never ending support and following me on my crazy journey that also never ends! We all have incredible gifts and have the choice to do something with it! I leave you with an incredible and beautiful quote on Fear as well as some cool footage of my latest Adventure below:

Our Deepest Fear Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be?You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear,our presence automatically liberates others.


Much Love,

Patty Boom Boom
"Face Your Fears, Live Your Dreams"
www.patriciaalcivar.com