January 2010 has started off with a big BOOM in every way! But,it all has not gone exactly as planned...My last three consecutive bouts fell through. The most recent one on January 28th where I was suppose to box at the Charlotte Convention Center for "Fight Night for Kids" was one of the most disappointing & heartbreaking to date. Everything seemed to be going well for the most part. I mean, my opponent at least showed up for the weigh-ins this time even though she was 6lbs over & the commission allowed her a 5lb allowance. I was completely convinced & focused on the fight happening until the next day where my opponent failed the pregnancy test a few hours before the fight. I was devastated and just broke down & cried for a very long time...It was going to take a-lot of faith & inner strength to stay motivated.
Between this fight being cancelled & some personal problems, it was an extremely difficult week for me where I struggled more than I could ever remember. Two major things helped me get through this amazingly challenging week. First and foremost was FAITH! Going to church & just pouring everything into my prayers was extremely powerful! Secondly, In these times of adversity and challenges, you quickly find out who your real friends & supporters are. I am so very thankful to my big sis, my lifelong friend/old trainer Martin, & a few other wonderful people (you know who you are) who had encouraging words and so much wisdom to share.
I was able to pull myself together just in time for my WNC Magazine Fashion runway debut yesterday, February 5th. I have so much to live for & I am after all a fighter in every sense of the word. Wow! What an amazing experience! I have a whole new respect for modeling as it is not as easy as you may think...As with anything in life, its all about the attitude, energy & focus. If you are tentative or not fully present, people can feel it. You have to walk to the music, love what you are wearing, be fully present and most important of all, love/feel good about yourself.
I felt the anxiety build up just as if I was waiting to get in a ring, except this time, I was waiting to go out on the runway in heels :). Most of the time I am in either sneakers or boxing shoes, so this is not my area of expertise, however, I had faith that this was my moment to shine & make the best out of it!
I had 5 scenes:
Flower Scene, where I wore a plain black above knee black dress while really focusing on featuring the beautiful flower arrangements...I came out & smiled, smelled the flowers & took the moment in...It was flawless & I could hear & feel the crowd's support!
Vintage Scene (my favorite & pictured above), I wore a thigh high, sapphire blue velvet dress with a yellow silk belt & blue/flower print shoes..I loved the dress & my energy was crazy high & I became the crowd favorite after this dress!
Cocktail Scene, I wore a gorgeous White & Black Bustier with elegant black pants & a beautiful pair of crazy high black lacy heels accompanied by a very sophisticated mini flowered handbag. Totally wowed the crowd with this outfit..Big Bonus: Did not trip or fall in the super high heels!
Lingerie Scene, To my surprise, I was very comfortable in this baby doll sheer black night gown that was definitely a crowd pleaser.
Finale Scene, In this scene the producer assigns you back to a dress they feel was the one you looked the best in & that for me was the "vintage dress" so I got back in my velvet thigh high Sapphire blue dress & finished my runway debut with a KO!
Talking about Facing you Fears & Living your Dreams...In this particular fashion show, each of the models had the entire runway for themselves each time we went out to model a specific scene/outfit. The minute we walked off the runway, we had to sprint backstage & had "dressers" undress & dress us for the next scene!! OMG! Another first for me!! It was about letting go & putting your trust in someone else...I took every moment and had a blast! I am so grateful for having the opportunity & look forward to doing it again soon. This was all filmed & hope to have the video & pictures soon, so stay tuned!
In closing, I just needed to say that Courage is a wonderful phenomenon! Anyone can possess it indeed and it is an everlasting feeling grown from a tender and loving seed. Courage is standing up for yourself when everyone is tearing you apart and living the best life possible and doing so with all your heart. I Thank God for giving me the courage to keep fighting for everything I believe in...
"Faith calls my name in my most trying moments & is my most trusted companion that never leaves me," Patty Boom Boom
Much Love,
Patty Boom Boom
www.patriciaalcivar.com
